We had our first baby appointment on Thursday. I was really nervous because I have Kaiser insurance this time and I've not been impressed with the system for Sam at all. Turns out those fears weren't necessary as the np I saw is awesome. Kaiser and their infuriating system still sucks but at least she was nice (after waiting almost an hour after my appointment was due to start grumble grumble)
Josh went with me and had to tell me to woosah a few times. I am not a patient person. And sitting naked on a doctor's table for thirty minutes with a full bladder (they don't take a urine sample til you go down to the lab after) was not exactly fun for me.
I find myself not nervous about the pregnancy as I know what to expect. I wasn't looking forward to the "dildo cam" ultrasound I knew i'd be getting, for example. Josh had forgotten about that comical experience the first time around.
We talked a lot with Jessica, my np, and she answered all my questions and assured me that a high risk doctor would be consulted about my placenta and umbilical cord abnormalities that I had with Sam. That made me feel a lot less anxious for sure. Pretty soon it was time for my exam. Everything looked great and we got a great glimpse at our little gummy bear baby. Baby was measuring exactly 8w3d, which was my exact guess as to when we had conceived. That means our due date is officially 8/4/14. Baby's heart rate was a strong 173 non which was a beautiful sight and sound
I think ipopped this week for sure! Of course im pretty bloaty but I really think my poor abs are just busted from separating last time so they cant hold back my growing uterus.
Symptoms: I have been feeling much MUCH worse this week as far as nausea and exhaustion. I have a backwards baby though and feel okay all day and miserable at night.
Weight: Still hanging in at 134.5-135, which is- 2 from prepreg weight, you wouldn't know it by my new belly though!
Sleep: sucky. Between Sam and my insomnia and needing to pee, I just am not sleeping well at all.
Food Cravings: Salty bland things like baked potatoes and French fries. Super healthy! Also, coke. It seems to settle my stomach.
Best Moment this week: getting to see and hear our little baby in there. Made it so much more real.
Movement: None yet but I hope soon!
Labor signs: nope
Gender: I still keep calling this baby a boy on accident or talking about the baby and Sam as, "the boys" . Its weird and I'll feel bad if it ends up being a girl but I just have a feeling.
Belly button: in for good.
What do I miss: sleep!
What am I looking forward to: as sad as it sounds, I am hoping my milk slowly dries up so Sam weans himself sooner rather than later. Nursing him now is painful and we're not sleeping well bc he wants to nurse all night (maybe bc my milk is sparse? ) I don't know. It would just be nice to have a break before I start all over.
Milestones: First appointment, heard and saw the heartbeat!
Weekly Wisdom: I really have nothing this week. I'm feeling cranky and emotional o and like I ruined my first baby and I have no idea how I'm going to deal with him and all his demands plus a newborn. Blahh. Overwhelmed.