Thirteen Weeks 2.0

Just like that, the first trimester is over! I am still feeling pretty nauseated and gaggy most days but the boost in my energy has been incredible! I feel like catching up for lost time so most mornings I'm waiting for Sam to wake up so we can go,go,go! The weather has been so nice and sunny too which may be contributing to my funk coming to an end.

Our 12 week appointment on Tuesday was great! I went alone while Josh was on Sam duty. I'm a little bummed he missed the ultrasound as this baby was bouncing all over like a ping pong ball! Everything looked perfect, baby had a heart rate of 180! That's way higher than Sam's ever was so I'm getting creeping vibes that this might indeed be a little girl in there.

I have been trying to wean Sam down to three times a day for nursing. I know there's not much milk there as he's suddenly become a voracious eater and he frequently asks for sippies of milk (unheard of before now) . it makes me glad to know that obviously until now, my body was providing all he needed! Its amazing what we were designed to do. I am truly ready to wean. I would like some recovery time before starting over. I just want to end it on the sweet note that it's been for us all along. I don't want Sam to feel jealousy or sadness that I'm giving someone else his source of comfort.

i have been having some ridiculously scary and MESSED up dreams. Which really sucks bc when im actually sleeping, i wake up in a panic bc of these crazy dreams. My nost recent one involved spiders being implanted into my skin as punishment for catching a government protected fish. ..uhhh...Wtf? 

Symptoms: evening nausea and gagging, headaches, CRANKINESS. Annnd the ever so lovely constipation and hemi problem.
Weight: hanging in at 135.5
Sleep: worse than ever. insomnia, pee breaks, Sam sleeping like shit. fun.
Food Cravings: cherry and lemon sour twizzlers !
Best Moment this week: getting to see our little jellybean
Movement: I haven't felt much in a week or so but I do get random, "omg I'm gonna pee my pants" moments where the baby is either bouncing or resting on my bladder
Labor signs: nope
Gender: I'm maybe swinging towards girl bc I'm breaking out, cranky and I've been so sick. plus the heart rate
Belly button: in for now
What do I miss: margaritas to take the edge off my moodiness. (that makes me sound like an alcoholic)
What am I looking forward to: more energy
Milestones: end of first tri!

Twelve Weeks 2.0

Uggggghhhhh. I did it again. I jinxed myself. Right when I thought I was beginning to feel better...NOPE...pregnancy said, "haha just kidding! " and knocked me back on my ass.

Its a different kind of misery and more sporadic. I am still unsure whether it's worse than before or just equally sucky. For the past three nights, i was convinced i was coming down with a stomach bug. Hot flashes, intense waves of nausea that had me running to the bathroom and dry heaving but not being able to actually puke...followed by the miserable whole body trembles and shakes. ugg.  I always feel much better the next morning so im really not sure whats going on. If i was actually sick, something wouldve happened by now...right? !?!

In less whiny news, Sam has been adorable and hilarious this week. Toddlerhood has it's downfalls for sure but I am just so smitten with this little PERSON that my baby has become. It goes so fast. I am trying to unplug and really drink in my time with him. Our time together is limited before someone new comes along and I want to cherish my only baby for right now as much as I can.

I am feeling extremely emotional lately and also very noticeably pregnant. I'm so ready for our secret to be OUT!

Symptoms: new this week are hot flashes, dizziness, headaches and lower back pain. Also, feeling hungry then having to stop eating bc I start feeling immediately like I'm going to vom. fun!
Weight: back down to 134.5-135.5 this week. its been a rough one.
Sleep: I hate this question. shitty. thanks for reminding me.
Food Cravings: I had my first REAL, "I have to go get this right now or I'll die" craving two days in a row this week. del taco bean and cheese burrito with green chile sauce. amazing.
Best Moment this week: Probably fulfilling my first craving for REAL food that isn't bland and starchy.
Movement: I swear I'm still feeling sporadic little hums and buzzes
Labor signs: nope
What do I miss: Feeling normal. buttoning my pants.
What am I looking forward to: our appointment on Tuesday and buying some maternity pants. my belly is so out there that the only comfy thing I own are leggings!
Milestones: first craving
Weekly Wisdom: Try t eat even if you feel awful. it'll only get worse if you don't.

Eleven Weeks 2.0

I am hoping that last week was the apex of my misery.  This week, while difficult at times has seemed just the teensiest bit more bearable. I've had a bit of appetite return and being able to eat a little more has made a huge difference in my energy levels.

Josh and I are in this amazing place right now. I don't really know if it's hormones or the romantic notion of a new baby joining us or what, but it's been sweet. No stress, just lots of QT and flirting like the old days. Sam will probably be grossed out by us when he's older. ;)

Some days I look pregnant and others, not at all. My bloat usually disappears at night so in the morning I look back to my regular skinny self. However, I can tell that my uterus is lifting up bc my belly looks higher this week.

Sam has had a rough week. So much clinging and crying, nursing and not sleeping. My boobs are killing me. Just this morning though, I peeked inside his mouth and his gums are shredded and bloody back where the two year molars are just peeking out. Poor baby. I HATE teething. At least after these, he's done. Let's pray Cashew has an easier time than poor Sam.

Symptoms: more of the same. Slightly less nausea but still lots of gagging especially on an empty stomach. I've started getting horrible RLP too which I remember vividly from Sam. Ouch!
Weight: I'm back at square one. 136.
Sleep: Horrible but mostly bc of Sam. I think besides getting up to pee, I'd sleep like the dead if my child would let me. One day this week, I fell asleep while playing on the floor with Sam! Poor kid. He woke me up by bashing me in the face with a bag of marshmallows.
Food Cravings: salt and vinegar potato chips and GREEN APPLE lifesavers. Wtf. I hate apple candy but when I feel super gaggy and nauseated, they help so much.
Best Moment this week: I'd say the reconnection with Josh
Movement: yep, still feeling sporadic wiggles
Labor signs: nope
Gender: don't know!
Belly button: in
What do I miss: ibuprofen! I've started getting some headaches and Tylenol just doesn't cut it
What am I looking forward to: my next appointment, next Monday
Milestones:..none that I can think of
Weekly Wisdom: too many salt and vinegar chips will tear your mouth up!

Ten Weeks 2.0

Ugh. By far, this has been the absolute worst week of pregnancy I have ever experienced. Sam's included. I spend my days completely nauseated, my gagging has progressed to full on dry heaving fits where I have to hold my breath and take sips of ice water to regain control again. I actually vomited twice when I couldnt get a handle on it. It is awful.

My energy had been slowly making a reappearance it seems but we have been snowed in for three days. I am cranky and cabin fevered and having a VERY hard time entertaining my little toddler. 

Speaking of Sam, he's been a mess this whole week. Clingy, whiny, can't be out of my sight without melting down, sleeping terribly. ..we're talking up in the middle of the night fussing then being wired and not got back to sleep for HOURS. I don't know if it's his two year molars finally or what but Ohhh man. So.t.I.r.e.d.

Symptoms: the usual horrible nausea, dry heaves, exhaustion. Also some fun heartburn, horrible constipation, some dizziness and shaking. The most annoying is the fact that I can't seem to regulate my body temperature. I've been like this since the beginning but it's getting really old having these freezing and sweating spells.
Weight: I'm right where I started, 136. I'm thinking that has more to do with my bathroom issues than actual baby gain though
Sleep: Horrible.
Food Cravings: still only wanting salty, bland things. Baked potatoes. Everything else makes me gag.
Best Moment this week: see next question!
Movement: I swear, I thought I was going crazy the other night in bed when I kept feeling this familiar little wiggling sensation. I thought there was no way this early but lo and behold, I put my hand down low on my abdomen and pressed and could feel tiny wiggles in response. Whoa!
Labor signs: nope.
Gender: I am having strong boy vibes still. Everyone that knows thinks girl.
Belly button: in
What do I miss: sleep!
What am I looking forward to: our next appointment at 12 weeks. The np told me she'd let me peek at baby again. This time, we are opting out of any genetic testing as it's not covered and we are so low risk so I won't see little cashew again until our 20 week anatomy scan!  (Josh nicknamed this one that since Sam was Peanut in utero)
Milestones: first flutters! First time vomiting. Bleh.
Weekly Wisdom: naps don't ever make me feel better!

Enjoy my ten week belly with my little photo bomber!